Sorry, I have not written lately. Things have been rather chaotic. None the less, I have a story to share.
After Pooky Bear had a shower, I held her up to the mirror so she could see herself.
She asked, "Mommy, where's Jesus?"
"Jesus is in our hearts"
"Is Jesus in everyone's hearts?"
"Jesus will go into anyone's heart if they ask Him to."
"I asked Jesus very nicely to come into my heart."
I had to share this story....too cute.
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Update
I am sorry for all the blogs recently which more talk about the direct events in my family rather than cute stories about my girls or "super cleaning days". I have appreciated the value of being able to vent "online".
Sunday, we found out Chad's dad is only functioning on 1/3 of his heart. This was crazy, but oddly, not devastating. Right now I have been uplifting him up to God and I have been also praying he would do the same. I know he is the janitor for a church, but I am not aware of his walk with God.
Monday, we found out my Grandpa on my dad's side is in the hospital. He just got a pace maker today, I think he is doing fine now. I know just before the pace maker, he was struggling a lot. From what I understand the procedure was easy and very necessary. My poor Grandma!
My baby girl has been sick since Monday. She is starting to look and act better. I helps she is actually able to hold 2 oz in her body. Gee, I know what that feels like. Her spirits are good, and the doctor we saw today could not believe how contented and happy she is. That has been her attitude for a long time now.
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Taking all of this information has been a little overwhelming, but not too much to handle (if that makes sense?) I have been working on praying a lot lately. To take my mind off things, I took the kids for a walk yesterday and watched them enjoy puddles. Pooky bear had a blast splashing as much as she could. I am also trying to be focussed on my work and cleaning. Gee, at this rate I will have one sparkly clean house and tons of money in the bank for all the avoidance I have been wanting to do. I am going to go visit my Grandpa tomorrow. It is pretty much guaranteed I will be in cleaning mode after I come home. For some reason when things like this happen in my family, I tend to clean. The cleaning is a good thing, the reason I am cleaning, not so good. Oh well.
Sunday, we found out Chad's dad is only functioning on 1/3 of his heart. This was crazy, but oddly, not devastating. Right now I have been uplifting him up to God and I have been also praying he would do the same. I know he is the janitor for a church, but I am not aware of his walk with God.
Monday, we found out my Grandpa on my dad's side is in the hospital. He just got a pace maker today, I think he is doing fine now. I know just before the pace maker, he was struggling a lot. From what I understand the procedure was easy and very necessary. My poor Grandma!
My baby girl has been sick since Monday. She is starting to look and act better. I helps she is actually able to hold 2 oz in her body. Gee, I know what that feels like. Her spirits are good, and the doctor we saw today could not believe how contented and happy she is. That has been her attitude for a long time now.
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Taking all of this information has been a little overwhelming, but not too much to handle (if that makes sense?) I have been working on praying a lot lately. To take my mind off things, I took the kids for a walk yesterday and watched them enjoy puddles. Pooky bear had a blast splashing as much as she could. I am also trying to be focussed on my work and cleaning. Gee, at this rate I will have one sparkly clean house and tons of money in the bank for all the avoidance I have been wanting to do. I am going to go visit my Grandpa tomorrow. It is pretty much guaranteed I will be in cleaning mode after I come home. For some reason when things like this happen in my family, I tend to clean. The cleaning is a good thing, the reason I am cleaning, not so good. Oh well.
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Had to share
Presenting my newest toddler(picture taken today), and my soccer player (picture taken at the soccer facility on Saturday). I needed to share.
Update on family: Chad got his pins out and I have to go for an ultrasound on my wrist, however, my stomach is not doing so bad. Yeah! Chad's dad though is in the hospital with a lung infection and blood clots in both legs. We saw him today briefly and he said he has been much better once they started him on the right drugs, so yeah for that. I officially became a complete pampered chef consultant, big yeah for that! Pooky bear is doing much better on her new drugs for her asthma and poor little monkey is teething 8 teeth at once! We could see and count eight of her teeth, including two molars. Poor girlie! She has been struggling to sleep and has been reliant on tylenol and icy bite soothers. Other than that things are doing really well.
YEAH!
Monday, March 05, 2007
Hope
A good friend of mine gave me a book recently called, "Treasures for women who hope" Written by Alice Gray. This book has been a very inspiring book to read. I can not seem to put it down. I am sure the chapters are meant for one chapter-a-day reading, however, I keep reading on.
Since at the end of each chapter there is part for you to analyze what you have read, I thought I would answer the questions on my blog, this way others could read and comment too. Warning the questions are loading and are not an easy answer. I am going to try my best to answer them with no masks on
1) Describe you feelings about the idea that God allows and, yes, even plans difficulties for our lives. How does your understanding affect your ability to hope?
This is not an easy answer. My first gut instinct is to question "why". As I have learnt recently Job did the same thing to God. He was richly blessed in the end, however, through out the book of Job it talks about him questioning why God does the things He does. So, my first feeling is confusion. I do know that lessons are learnt through experiences. With out the experiences, we would learn nothing and would not know a lot in life.
This still causes confusion as I still want to find an easier way to learn, however, I also know that the easy way out is not necessarily the best way to learn. More mistakes can be made this way.
I am typically the first voice of hope in our house when things take a turn for the worse. I am just not good at dealing when it is me that is directly involved in our turmoil. It sounds weird but I can handle things happening to my husband and my children. I indistinctly go into a mode of dependence on God and focusing to my family that God will get us through it. However, if it is me that is sick. I can not seem to manage this. I understand it fully, but do not find peace in it.
I know I have problems with confrontations. I have been trying really hard to work on this fault of mine. I tend to hide from the problem rather then face it. I have been really trying to work on this in hopes that it will help my coping skills for when I am ill.
2)How do you usually respond when heartbreaks crash down on you or those you love?
It depends on who is involved. I seem to loose hope if it is me directly involved, however, if it is anyone else, I have no problems understanding where my hope comes from. I do know when I am seriously ill, I seek prayer and support from those I care about. This I guess helps find hope for me. (So much for a simple answer!) I guess I understand where I go to help find hope if it is lacking in me. I believe this is a good thing. I am also starting to read more scripture than before, which has also helped because I never really realized how much heartache is in the bible. Is it wrong to find comfort in reading about someone else's pain? It reminds me I am not alone.
Empathy is a powerful response to people's pain. I tend to seek empathy when I am sick, I also try to give empathy when others need it. I know I would not be here if it wasn't for God. Everything I have in life would not be here if it wasn't for Him. I am eternally grateful for that and I also know He will get me through anything. However, knowing this doesn't always help.
I am a bit of a control freak and like to be in control. This is why, I think, I have no problems providing empathy and support to those who need it. This is also why I have a hard time coping when something goes wrong with me. I can not control what is happening. It seems I have an easier time telling others to pray and provide support to them, rather than letting others provide prayer and support to me. For those who have known me a long time will know this has been a struggle of mine for a while.
I have to say,though, I have been making an effort to change that and let God take control of my life as well as others. I don't struggle with change, as it happens a lot in my life, so I am looking forward (finally) to the change God has planned in the near future. I see change happening and I am curious about his plans. So I guess I am finding hope again, and it is a good feeling.
These questions are taken from chapter 3 in "Treasures for women who hope"
Since at the end of each chapter there is part for you to analyze what you have read, I thought I would answer the questions on my blog, this way others could read and comment too. Warning the questions are loading and are not an easy answer. I am going to try my best to answer them with no masks on
Something beautiful
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also, he has put eternity in their hearts,
except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
Ecclesiastes 3:11
1) Describe you feelings about the idea that God allows and, yes, even plans difficulties for our lives. How does your understanding affect your ability to hope?
This is not an easy answer. My first gut instinct is to question "why". As I have learnt recently Job did the same thing to God. He was richly blessed in the end, however, through out the book of Job it talks about him questioning why God does the things He does. So, my first feeling is confusion. I do know that lessons are learnt through experiences. With out the experiences, we would learn nothing and would not know a lot in life.
This still causes confusion as I still want to find an easier way to learn, however, I also know that the easy way out is not necessarily the best way to learn. More mistakes can be made this way.
I am typically the first voice of hope in our house when things take a turn for the worse. I am just not good at dealing when it is me that is directly involved in our turmoil. It sounds weird but I can handle things happening to my husband and my children. I indistinctly go into a mode of dependence on God and focusing to my family that God will get us through it. However, if it is me that is sick. I can not seem to manage this. I understand it fully, but do not find peace in it.
I know I have problems with confrontations. I have been trying really hard to work on this fault of mine. I tend to hide from the problem rather then face it. I have been really trying to work on this in hopes that it will help my coping skills for when I am ill.
2)How do you usually respond when heartbreaks crash down on you or those you love?
It depends on who is involved. I seem to loose hope if it is me directly involved, however, if it is anyone else, I have no problems understanding where my hope comes from. I do know when I am seriously ill, I seek prayer and support from those I care about. This I guess helps find hope for me. (So much for a simple answer!) I guess I understand where I go to help find hope if it is lacking in me. I believe this is a good thing. I am also starting to read more scripture than before, which has also helped because I never really realized how much heartache is in the bible. Is it wrong to find comfort in reading about someone else's pain? It reminds me I am not alone.
Empathy is a powerful response to people's pain. I tend to seek empathy when I am sick, I also try to give empathy when others need it. I know I would not be here if it wasn't for God. Everything I have in life would not be here if it wasn't for Him. I am eternally grateful for that and I also know He will get me through anything. However, knowing this doesn't always help.
I am a bit of a control freak and like to be in control. This is why, I think, I have no problems providing empathy and support to those who need it. This is also why I have a hard time coping when something goes wrong with me. I can not control what is happening. It seems I have an easier time telling others to pray and provide support to them, rather than letting others provide prayer and support to me. For those who have known me a long time will know this has been a struggle of mine for a while.
I have to say,though, I have been making an effort to change that and let God take control of my life as well as others. I don't struggle with change, as it happens a lot in my life, so I am looking forward (finally) to the change God has planned in the near future. I see change happening and I am curious about his plans. So I guess I am finding hope again, and it is a good feeling.
These questions are taken from chapter 3 in "Treasures for women who hope"
Friday, March 02, 2007
I see the rainbow!
This afternoon I am feeling much better, I still have my wrist in a splint, but that is my only obsticale I am faced with today, YEAH!
And on the note of feeling better, I am going to clean as best as I know how.
Goal for this afternoon:
Make lunch - soup and toast with fruit for dessert
Laundry - at this point anything more than one load a day would be an ackomplishment
Dishes- (this one will hurt, but it is really needed right now)
Reading and enjoy a cup of tea - didn't expect this one did you, I am realizing I will need a break before I wear out.
Bathroom - I can't wait to try this one as I just bought the Mr clean bathroom cleaning kit
Call some people re: Pampered Chef
Then get ready to enjoy my Friday night.
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